workcover victims diary – update

There is plenty going on at the moment – between desperately finding a witchcraft potion for my debilitating pain, coping with and “accepting” my dreadful condition and prognosis, trying to sleep, navigating the endless trials of being on workcover, fighting for my entitled basic home help, deciding whether or not I am prepared to literally risk my life for a reverse shoulder prosthesis, encouraging my partner to care for me and the house…and my blog!

workcover victims diary – update

 

A few days ago I received a wake-up call in the form of a medical report from my treating upper limb specialist surgeon. Not that I needed a wake-up call as such, hell, I know I am deteriorating rapidly and every day, but I did perhaps not realise that, even if I had the guts to undergo and would survive the needed reverse shoulder joint prosthesis, I would not ever regain anything resembling normal function again in my arm…[I suffered two massive heart failures and very nearly died during two of the eight shoulder surgeries and although my heart failure is directly related to the shoulder specific surgical procedures, they remain uncertain of what exactly it is that caused the hart to fail so badly].

The pain I am in, and have been in over the past weeks/months is inhuman and is literally pushing me at the very end of my limits, both physically and mentally, as well captured by my surgeon’s report.

I hardly sleep from it and have, since months, resorted to camping in the living room at night, so that I can watch TV, read the blog, whatever  and cry myself into a slumber without disturbing my parrots and my partner.

Extracts of the surgical report

The mechanical or functional status of my right (dominant) shoulder (and arm) is now at such an extent that I am no longer able to physically write [at all], hold a cuppa, hold a book,  a fork, or – most importantly – hold the microphone or the keyboard keys on my laptop (i.e. CRTL-SHIFT) to blog!

Whilst I have been using voice recognition software for posting the bulk of the articles of the blog in the past with some success (and with receiving manual help with insertion of pictures etc. from other people), fact is that I am now no longer able to even “blog” this way. The only thing I can do is to record – with dictation or dicataphone- articles and have someone else insert (post/blog) them on my behalf . This is, obviously, a major issue given that I am running a very popular blog!

Many people have – kindly- sent me (the blog) emails stating that they have noticed that “I was not blogging much” and wondering “if I was OK”.

Yes, I am “OK” – well, I am alive. But I am struggling myself stupid. I am having a damn hard time and bracing myself for even worse. And, ouch, I just found out, the hard way, that [arthritic]  pain is so much worse in winter and that it is not an old wife’s tale 🙁

I am saving up for a hands-free head set with in-built microphone! I wonder if workcover is liable for that?

 

I just want to take the opportunity to warmly welcome and thank “Trinny” who has, as of today, “officially” joined workcover victims diary as a co-author! Trinny is also an injured worker and has been contributing to the blog for months (behind the scenes, via email and Twitter initially), for which I/we are extremely grateful and already forever indebted.

I also want to take the opportunity to warmly welcome and thank injured worker “Jamie” who has kindly volunteered to co-author our (neglected!) Facebook page as of 6 or 7 June 2012. “Jamie” [nickname for ID protection] has been commenting regularly on the blog and has been an insightful contributor and an absolutely delightful forum “buddy”.

And let’s not forget to applaud the wonderful and hard work from John McPhilbin who joined us about a month ago. John has been a great “asset” to workcovervictimsdiary.com, and this is well reflected in the ongoing growing popularity of our blog (Google stats are just mind-boggling!).

 

 

Thank you to all our readers, supporters and contributors for your wonderful support, a workcover victims diary would be nothing without you!

 

 

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workcovervictim3
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@ChristineLiz, I hear ya! Whilst it is not possible to “compare” one injured worker’s nightmare, injury and trauma with an another (I refer here to Lisa), for each injured worker that we have come across has a nightmare of their own, I strongly believe that you need urgent professional help, which we may not be able to offer you as we / this site is run by injured workers. Have you sought professional psychological counselling and/or psychiatric support? It sounds to me that you really need all the support you can get at this stage to overcome some of the… Read more »
Christineliz12
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My friend? who penned all those letters. The letters i couldnt write because of the trauma, from the initial assault of the Principal and then the ongoing bullying from the Deputy and Acting Head Teacher and NOW an IMA who tells everyone;”watch her she lies” who refuses to email me in regard to a RTW that should have happened months ago. An IME who has hardly spoken to me in 5 years. Who wrote that my home was ‘not kept'(im a clean freak?),& she had NEVER been to my home,an IMA that told my new GP, (to her horror)to write… Read more »
ithurts
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This is the first time I have heard you talk about those times in your life. It proves that you are such a wonderful person & you do have a purpose here with us. I think in some way, with life experience, we all have our own beliefs & refer to that energy as universe, God, Budha, etc. As hard as the next step is going to be for you, you need to believe that you are not finished & you have so much more to give. I know you want to give back to your partner, friends, family, Doctors… Read more »
workcovervictim
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I just realised, thanks to you, itHurts, that it is indeed the very first time I have been able to “write” about the event. For years I was unable to even speak about it  (aka PTSD). I am a warrior and I am ultra resilient, however the reality of my situation as it currently stands (7 months after the 2nd heart failure and 5 years after the 1st heart failure) is that we have not (yet) been given the “go ahead” to proceed with any further surgery from a cardiac point of view. Fact is they still don’t really know… Read more »
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Dear wonderful Lisa, I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I remember reading a comment from a case manager to WCV diary, who said something like “if all you people would spend as much time writing your resumes to get a job things would be much better for you all”. Your site is the only thing that has given us the courage to continue. Nobody knows how  we suffer behind the scenes with trying to live each day, and being a carer, friend/ family, try to keep our injured love ones functioning is also such a credit.… Read more »
workcovervictim
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Thank you so so much for your extraordinary kind words and for your amazing support to injured workers! You simply rock 😉 As for the praying bit, whilst I don’t pray in the conventional way no more, since my near death experience of 2007, I do “pray” in other ways. All I can say to you (and who’s interested) that it is my belief that there is really a “Greater Power” or a “God” if you want to call it and that you will meet with “this” when you die. My overall experience, whilst dead, was incredibly “beautiful” and extraordinary… Read more »