There is plenty going on at the moment – between desperately finding a witchcraft potion for my debilitating pain, coping with and “accepting” my dreadful condition and prognosis, trying to sleep, navigating the endless trials of being on workcover, fighting for my entitled basic home help, deciding whether or not I am prepared to literally risk my life for a reverse shoulder prosthesis, encouraging my partner to care for me and the house…and my blog!
workcover victims diary – update
A few days ago I received a wake-up call in the form of a medical report from my treating upper limb specialist surgeon. Not that I needed a wake-up call as such, hell, I know I am deteriorating rapidly and every day, but I did perhaps not realise that, even if I had the guts to undergo and would survive the needed reverse shoulder joint prosthesis, I would not ever regain anything resembling normal function again in my arm…[I suffered two massive heart failures and very nearly died during two of the eight shoulder surgeries and although my heart failure is directly related to the shoulder specific surgical procedures, they remain uncertain of what exactly it is that caused the hart to fail so badly].
The pain I am in, and have been in over the past weeks/months is inhuman and is literally pushing me at the very end of my limits, both physically and mentally, as well captured by my surgeon’s report.
I hardly sleep from it and have, since months, resorted to camping in the living room at night, so that I can watch TV, read the blog, whatever and cry myself into a slumber without disturbing my parrots and my partner.
Extracts of the surgical report
The mechanical or functional status of my right (dominant) shoulder (and arm) is now at such an extent that I am no longer able to physically write [at all], hold a cuppa, hold a book, a fork, or – most importantly – hold the microphone or the keyboard keys on my laptop (i.e. CRTL-SHIFT) to blog!
Whilst I have been using voice recognition software for posting the bulk of the articles of the blog in the past with some success (and with receiving manual help with insertion of pictures etc. from other people), fact is that I am now no longer able to even “blog” this way. The only thing I can do is to record – with dictation or dicataphone- articles and have someone else insert (post/blog) them on my behalf . This is, obviously, a major issue given that I am running a very popular blog!
Many people have – kindly- sent me (the blog) emails stating that they have noticed that “I was not blogging much” and wondering “if I was OK”.
Yes, I am “OK” – well, I am alive. But I am struggling myself stupid. I am having a damn hard time and bracing myself for even worse. And, ouch, I just found out, the hard way, that [arthritic] pain is so much worse in winter and that it is not an old wife’s tale 🙁
I just want to take the opportunity to warmly welcome and thank “Trinny” who has, as of today, “officially” joined workcover victims diary as a co-author! Trinny is also an injured worker and has been contributing to the blog for months (behind the scenes, via email and Twitter initially), for which I/we are extremely grateful and already forever indebted.
I also want to take the opportunity to warmly welcome and thank injured worker “Jamie” who has kindly volunteered to co-author our (neglected!) Facebook page as of 6 or 7 June 2012. “Jamie” [nickname for ID protection] has been commenting regularly on the blog and has been an insightful contributor and an absolutely delightful forum “buddy”.
And let’s not forget to applaud the wonderful and hard work from John McPhilbin who joined us about a month ago. John has been a great “asset” to workcovervictimsdiary.com, and this is well reflected in the ongoing growing popularity of our blog (Google stats are just mind-boggling!).
Thank you to all our readers, supporters and contributors for your wonderful support, a workcover victims diary would be nothing without you!